School at 30

So I started school....again....for the 3rd time now. While the 1st two times were only 2 years apart...it has now been almost a decade. Does that make me feel old? Oh yeah. I'm only actually going to campus for 1 of my 3 classes this semester and while I know I look older than most of the people in my class, oddly, I don't feel older. I do feel a little wiser because let's face it: I have 5 kids and some of my classmates still live at home. But another part of that is that when I address my professors, I do so by first name because I feel on the same level with them as opposed to when I was still a kid and looked up to them. That seems weird to me but maybe it's not. I have re-learned one fact that I am surprised I forgot. I hate math. I think it stems from me being right-brained and math being a left-brained thing. We have never gotten along. Much like Homer Simpson when he takes the science class to get his diploma, "'Ok brain, I don't like you and you don't like me. But let's get through this and I'll go back to killing you with beer.' 'It's a deal.'" This would not really be a problem except that for some stupid reason they believe that math and computer science are tied together. If I was going to be an electrical engineer or maybe a hardware guy or something then I suppose that makes sense but I'm going to be a programmer. The most math I need to be able to do is line 1 plus 2 =line 3 unless line 2 is an invalid entry in which case print error 15 and return to line 2. I mean seriously....does anyone actually use quadratic formula in real life? Are you really ever faced with an Au^2+Bu+C=0 that doesn't factor? The only sine I really need to worry about is the Stop one. And I only cosine with my wife when we feel it absolutely necessary. Although I admit I do go off on tangents rather frequently. Co-tangents just get confusing though and people start to wonder if you have multiple personalities. Evil it is. Required as well so if I want to get a real degree I guess I'll suffer through and hope I don't end up in a dark alley with Pythagorean.

Mid-life ponderings....or things that make you go hmmm

So I only turn 31 this year which is hardly mid-life...and if it is my wife is going to be very pissed off. But anyway, as I was looking over my blog, I realized that it tends to the deep and philosophical side as opposed to the light whimsical side that I love to read. I love Dave Barry. So why the crap am I being so thoughty? Is it because I feel at a crossroads in my life? I have a great job, I love it but another department is trying to get me to join them where I would get paid more and I got a call the other day from a company that wants to interview me if I'm interested. I have never had this kind of employement opportunities...ever. I'm going back to school after almost 10 years of abscense. I'm very nervous because while I did well in high school, college was a little too relaxed for me. I need structure apparently. Granted now I have a wife to kick my butt and tuition re-imbursement to shoot for but it doesn't make it any less scary.
So not a crisis and I don't see a sports car in my future(can't carry lots of people and poor gas mileage) but it has definitely brought out the ponderous me. Perhaps my better writing side. I don't know. Hopefully as this path unfolds I will be able to get outside my life and see what is going on in the world again...laugh and mock and cry with the issues that concern so many more of you. But for now, I'm lowering my horns, pushing through to see where I go and hoping when I raise my eyes again I will find myself where I want to be. Wherever that is.